Confessions

I feel I need to clarify......I have never been to a strip club....nor do I ever desire to. My mother always said to never be anywhere that you would not want Jesus to find you when he returns. I take that to heart!!!! I don't like casinos for that reason either. My sister wants to visit Las Vegas (just the 2 of us) ....and I'm sure thats a very nice city....filled with very nice people. But it's nicknamed 'Sin City' and I just can't get past that....even if the hotels are priced right and the buffet lines never end.

A different subject....I am also feeling guilty that I asked our chaplain to remove a poster in the conference room that I use as my office when admitting patients. The requst started somewhat in jest....but I still can't get this beautiful child out of my mind. It's a poster for Catholic support for immigrants. It is of a 1 or 2 week old baby and her 15 year old mother. Both are just BEAUTIFUL and their dark eyes penetrate my heart. The baby has just a diaper and their carmel skin is draped in the black background. I found a picture of MG at the same age. The comparison is uncanny. Everyone at work agreed, that my little princess could have been related to both mother and child. The chaplain said this baby is up for adoption and my heart soared!! Of course, there is no way that we could adopt now--- and this baby certainly has found a home. But the BABY BLUES!! We just found out that we are probably going to a very rural area and possibly only for 1 year. This closes the adoption door for at least a year. B and I have discussed our future adoptioning or not. We have decided to let God open doors or close them to help us decided if or when the time is right. I AM SO SCARED the doors are closing. Learning to trust in him......learning to trust in him.