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This is a severely neglected blog. Poor thing, you could call blog welfare and it still would be neglected. My head and heart just don’t have the energy to find the words to describe the call process. I am really trying to put my faith and trust in God. I feel like I’m doing it and then I break out in zits (won’t they be lovely for Call Day!) I love Chris Rice… and this song gives me comfort and makes sense to me.

The Chorus.....

Why does the past always seem safer?
Maybe because at least we know me made it
And why do we worry about the future?
When every day will come just the way the Lord ordained it
You can believe it, yeah, just like the 8th grade

You may have noticed the change from KLove to Luke 12 last month. I truly know God is in control. Thanks to GOD!, if I was in control... what mistakes could be made. Praise to God for his faithfulness and prayers for help to keep trust in HIM! I a prayer that Call Day comes quickly!

Kitty Mommy has a heavy heart

Wonderful weekend with a mission festival at our church. Good food, Good friends and Good Messages. We are praying for a couple who are spending their vicarage in Latvia. Oh my!!!! May God Bless them!

I have another prayer on my heart. Checkers is 15 years old (June 26, 1993). Yes, I know her birthday and I knew her parents (Little Lady and Oscar). She was born on my parents farm and my mom handpicked her for me just before she died. She was our first "kid" and is the most affectionate of all of my "kids". She's my baby. This spring she started slowing down and during the big move, she stayed in her kennel for 7 hours. It seemed like her hips had fused with arthritis (as she could only hop around my in laws house.) Ed brought her to his parent's vet, who was unwilling to give arthritis medication until she had taken blood. The results showed a heart problem and a high thyroid level. The medication gave Checkers a miracle recovery, but she HATED it. The cream needs to be placed in her ears. Most of our first month here - she stayed under our bed. She became very good at hiding and alluding us. After a month, the vet here retested her and her level was too low...so we stopped and our kitty slowly began to re trust us. We need to retest this week.....and she is slowing down, unable to jump onto the bed etc....yet is still grooming and is so much happier. My dilemma....do I stay ahead of health problems and keep her going......and hating me or let her age with dignity. The hospice nurse in me knows what to do. The Mom in me couldn't bear not treating her if I knew her levels were high again. So I'm thinking to just not retest. That doesn't seem very responsible. Neither option is good. Ed says it's my decision.....and it is. I need to call this week to retest. Decisions, Decisions. My camera gives her eyes...red eye.....doesn't due her justice. This picture shows both of my girls who love "kitty tv". Checks is on the left. Skittles is almost as big but is a diluted calico.

Is this a blessing?

Hole in garage fixed by carpenter = Blessing.
Fixed hole in garage = possible trapping in critter = terrifying
Ed telling me the Guaranteed trap worked!!! One caught!!! = Definitely a positive, but....

Do any remain????? We had no evidence for over a week, so thought it had left. Praying that it was a lonely rodent. Praying really hard it was not a new mama!

I was exhausted when I visited DM this weekend. Rodent phobia (notice how I can't type the M word?) leads to very poor sleeping. My legs kept kicking with my dreams. The only way I got any sleep is because Checkers sleeps under our bed or on top. I finally got a good night sleep in DM. I really don't see that happening tonight.

Breathe....Breathe....Breathe!!!!



Had a wonderful trip to DM. in order of occurrence.....
* 60Th Birthday Party for Uncle B in a beautiful State Park
* seeing beautiful baby H (now 7 weeks, ADORABLE and such a good baby!
* church with 4 of my 5 niece/nephews, with 2 more safely in their Mama's tummies
* seeing Ann with 14 other church friends/family at brunch and hanging out with Miss Emily. It was so good to see her again...in only 2 months!
*Then finishing with a Baby Shower for M. Great time!!! Thanks to God for being less then 4 hours away!

Well off to try to sleep....Tomorrow is my last day as full time SAHM. I go to school on the same day as Luke! Tomorrow we tour his class room and meet his teacher. She sent him a welcome letter yesterday with a stick of gum. She's his new favorite....sight unseen!

New Job!

God is Good! I did receive the new job...driving only 6 miles (reimbursed), and working only during school hours -3 days a week. Calling our new babysitter to discuss the hours made me cry "Mommy Happy Tears". There is only a 1/2 hour between schools out and Mom is home. No weekends, no evenings, no holidays or school breaks.....roads bad enough to cancel school...... = SNOW DAY for Mom too. It's the easy life of a teacher.......... HA HA HA. Teachers are worth their weight in GOLD!!!! It was suggested that I could be a classroom presence to ease the stress of the teacher and behavioral problems of students. I expected as much and I know I will be blessed in many ways from this position. Telling the former job offer was easier than I feared.....she understood a Mama's dilemma.

My husband is very happy. This will relieve his stress in many ways. This weekend's prayers were about finding peace in our decision with the job decision. On Saturday night, Ed was called to the hospital to pray with a teen before a surgery. If I was working evenings and weekends..... he would have to have a backup person to come and stay with the kids, delay his hospital visit or not go at all. He did not return home until midnight. Neither option would have been good. So we are content with the job decision and trusting God that the future is in his hands.

Difficult decisions remain on the church front. Muddling through grief is hard. I have no idea how one does this without prayer. Thank you for your prayers!!

Thank you for your prayers

Well it has been a long week. We have appreciated all of your prayers. The visitation and funeral were well attended, as expected due to how loved Pastor was. A former vicar and the president of the District performed the beautiful service and Pastor's son and wife spoke such messages of hope. They were amazing. I know I could never be so put together and share messages of hope. God is powerful to give such strength. The funeral was healing and now there is a feeling of need to pick up pieces and grow together. It is amazing to watch and exhausting at the same time. Ed and I were asked to sit with the other pastors and wives. Awe inspiring. To hear 45 pastors singing with all of their hearts, 'Abide in Me'....sends shivers down one's spine. My in laws came to watch the kids at the funeral and I am so grateful.

Several times in the past week, Ed's focus, strength and faith has brought me to tears. I have faith in my husband- but to watch it....makes trusting God even easier. Truly, we are taking just one day at a time and praying for every step we take. This is the only way to find our way. The District president asked a retired pastor to preach this week's sermon. Ed just did not have time. He did well last week adapting a sermon from one of his Sem classes....but this week he is so grateful to focus on the hundred other areas that require his attention. Your prayers, emails and support have been felt and so much appreciated.

I accepted a RN position in the nearby small city. I am very excited about it, however received another call today regarding a community position attending to the needs of a child in the public school. Ed and I are praying about this as would offer so much more stability for the kids. When God provides, he provides so much!!! Lots to pray about this weekend and a decision to be made on Monday. Leaning on God's guidance and prayers!